When Life Feels Like A Ticketmaster Queue

Where The Chaos Began

I knew the chaos was coming—but I didn’t expect it to hit me on Wi-Fi.

April 30th was Jin of BTS’s concert tickets ARMY presale — a chance to grab tickets before the general public got involved. I thought I was ready. I had lunch prepped (leftover cauliflower chicken, thank you very much), mushroom coffee in my system, and I was at work early, already whispering breath prayers. But something about this morning felt… off.

I was rattled walking in. I couldn’t name it, but I felt stretched before the real stretching even began. I rushed home at 2 p.m. Then it came. That 3 p.m. chaos. The bloodbath that is Ticketmaster.

Let Me Paint You A Picture

Two screens open. Me and a friend tag-teaming like war generals. I’m on Thursday. She’s on Friday. Another friend asked us to buy an extra ticket. So that’s three tickets total. No big deal, right?

Wrong.

16,000+ people in the queue. Websites freezing. Pages spinning endlessly. My friend’s screen froze right at the moment she was supposed to check out. I watched it happen. The heartbreak was real time.

I got tickets for Day 1, by the grace of God. Good seats too—close to the stage. But we couldn’t get Day 2. And the second day? It’s usually the real magic—the one with extra emotion, extra moments, and maybe even an encore.

We still have one more chance the next day. But as of right now, I’m sitting in a swirl of gratitude and grief. Happy. Sad. Tired. Wired. Hopeful. Frustrated.

And honestly?

It feels a lot like life.

Life is the Queue Sometimes

We wait for healing.

We fight for opportunities.

We hit refresh, again and again, hoping the door will finally open.

We carry other people’s hopes too, not just our own.

And when things freeze up or slip away, we wonder: Was I not faithful enough? Should I have prayed harder? Did I mess this up somehow?

Today I found myself asking those exact questions.

Maybe if I had prayed for both days, we would’ve gotten both. Maybe God’s telling me to let go. Maybe this is a lesson. Maybe it’s just… Ticketmaster being Ticketmaster.

But here’s the thing I know is true, even in this chaos:

“The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still.” — Exodus 14:14

That doesn’t mean I stop refreshing the page.

It just means I don’t have to lose my peace in the process.

Soul Insights

1. God shows up in unexpected places—even frozen screens and digital queues.

Even in a moment that feels too techy or “non-spiritual,” God’s presence can be found. He is not limited by location or circumstance. If we’re stressed, waiting, spiraling—He’s still near.

2. Sometimes grace is getting something, not everything.

It’s easy to miss the miracle when it’s not the one you hoped for. But grace often shows up in partial blessings—provision for today, not tomorrow. It takes trust to see enough as holy.

3. You don’t need to defend the joy that brings you back to life.

What makes you come alive matters. It doesn’t have to be universally understood. God delights in your delight—and BTS concerts are not too “small” for Him to care about.

4. You can hold joy and disappointment in the same breath.

It’s not wrong to be grateful for what you received and still ache for what you didn’t. God can handle both emotions. He moves in that tension, not just in our clarity.

5. Peace is not passive—it’s something you return to, over and over.

Choosing peace isn’t about giving up or pretending everything’s fine. It’s about surrendering what’s out of your hands and inviting God back into the swirl. Again and again.

Final Thoughts

Sometimes we get the miracle.

Sometimes we get the reminder that we’re not alone in the mess.

And sometimes, the miracle is the reminder.

Today, I’m choosing to believe that I was held.

Even in the chaos. Even in the 13,000th place.

Even in the ticket that didn’t come.

“Even if I fall, I get back up.” — BTS, “Tomorrow”

Tomorrow, we rise again.

Have you ever had a “Ticketmaster moment” in your own life?

Share your chaos, your faith, or your comeback in the comments —

I’d love to hold space for your story too.

Soul Path Insights